I can’t control myself and what I say after I start drinking, I also start lying and making up things about myself which I never do sober Why?

 If I were you, I would reach out to your network. I don’t know if you are in AA or NA. As far as sober apps, I think Loosid is the best sobriety app because it gives you things to do. the hotlines in Loosid are awesome because there’s always people to talk to. If you need sober help, I would suggest you use the hotlines or they can connect you with a drug treatment centre.